I refuse

I enjoy sleeping early these days because it takes my mind away from the things that I die to avoid.

After all these months, I come to face yet another round of obstacles that hinders me from moving forward.

I really dislike being restricted like this. Why does happiness always come with a heavy price? Why is it that when I feel a slight hope in my life I don't have the courage to embrace it?

I daren't let myself feel, I daren't let myself be close to anyone, I daren't put my future in this place.

Sometimes..I rather be stuck in the blues and wallow in pessimism.