Thinking back how far I've come along makes this semester an utter joke. I've completely lost track of my priorities and sense of direction. All around me, I see friends working so hard to land themselves a job; whilst I'm gallivanting my time away with a girl - totally not worth my time.
I've no motivation or whatsoever to strive hard. I'm always so distracted by things that doesn't matter. The opportunities are just laying right in front of me. Yet, I'm not as sharp as before. What's worse is that I can feel myself slowly deteriorating and still I'm doing nothing about it.
I choose to think about her. Someone that I'm not even sure is right for me. I've only myself to blame for being disoriented like this. My desire to compete and achieve is wearing off.
I have so many important things to attend to right now. Fortunately, I realized this soon enough. I will not let myself be tormented by mediocrity. I will not let others intrude into my life. I will not allow myself to submerge in this pool of hopelessness.
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